Actor, Writer, Jedi, Singer,

Actor, Writer, Jedi, Singer,
You were my brother, Anakin. I loved you

Saturday, December 31, 2016

2016 in Retrospect and 2017 New Years Resolutions


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Happy New Years, everyone! :) 

2016 was a year of many ups and downs for me. I started at a new university, which was the right decision, and I FINALLY got cast in a main stage college play AND got my Red Stripe and THEN my Red Belt. I also was accepted to go study abroad in England, which I'm excited for. I also got a job at a restaurant and worked out (got better endurance).
However, in the world, 2016 SUCKED >:(. We had the WORST election in the history of America and the most disgusting, vile, piece of vomit and radioactive bigoted, rapist, aligned-with-RussiaTRASH won the election. I cannot believe it and I am so hate-filled towards all who voted for that bigot and rapist. So now, whenever bad things happen, I will blame DUMP HEAD and his SUPPORTERS for it. We also had other terrible things happen like Aleppo, and the treatment of those living near Standing Rock and Flit, Michigan. Police brutality and gun violence are still major problems, and women are losing their rights again. Russia also hacked the elections and I'm so pissed that people are all okay with that. 
We also lost many well-loved actors and performers and musicians who did a lot of good, which was sad :( 

Here's to 2017 being better. I am prepared to fight against the resurgence of bigotry and hate (the rise of Nazis here in the US, which is so ICKY). So, Dump Head supporters, be prepared. We won't go quietly into that good night. 

My New Year's Resolution's are

To get cast in more plays
Get an Agent for my book (and work towards publication)
Finish re-writing book 3 (I'm getting close to the end) and start re-writing book 4
Get my Black Stripe in Taekwondo
Rip America back from the cold, evil hands of Dump Head and his cronies and stop the Republiklans in the government from ruining the US. 
Do well in college and get straight A's (since I didn't this past semester :'( most were A's, but one was 87%, ).
Read even MORE books
Watch some more TV shows
Keep working and making money
Get my face cleared up more
Work out and get some muscle 
Travel all over England and see many things and take pictures 
Make friends
Stand up for the EU even MORE >:D 

Hope you all have a good 2017! :) And May the Force Be With You

Books of 2016



Definitely read a lot of good books this year :)


How many books read in 2016: 
40-50 something? 


How many fiction and non fiction?: 
Mostly fiction. Read textbooks in college as well, about science (geology and geography), history, stage management, logic, Diversity in Film throughout history, etc. 



Male/Female author ratio?: 

About the same- maybe more girls?


Favorite book of 2016?: 
The Trials of Apollo: The Hidden Oracle 
The Raven King
Carry On
Six of Crows and Crooked Kingdom 
Rebel Force books (I read the first two, Target and Hostage)
Star Wars Republic and Clone Wars Comics
Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard: The Sword of Summer
Running Barefoot 
Supernatural: Cold Fire
12 Years A Slave
Coming of Age in Mississippi 
Othello
Amadeus

Least favorite?:

Half-Bad
The Way of the World
Gidion's Knot
The CallMacbeth
The True Gift


Newest?: 

The Trials of Apollo: The Hidden Oracle, The Raven King, or Crooked Kingdom


Longest and shortest book titles?:

Longest - Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard: The Sword of Summer
shortest - Clariel 


Longest and shortest books?: 
Longest was probably Carry On or Crooked Kingdom or The Raven King


How many books from the library?: 

Most were



Any translated books?:

Winterfrost, I believe was.



Most read author of the year, and how many books by that author?: 

I didn't really do that this year. I read a variety.



Any re-reads?: 

No :( (with fanfictions? YES). 


Favorite character of the year?
Obi-Wan Kenobi
Ferus Olin
Leia, Luke, and Han
Inej Ghafa, Kaz Brekker, Nina Zenik, Jesper Fahey, Matthias Helvar, Wylan Van Eck from Six of Crows
Blue, Gansey, Roan, Adam, and Noah from The Raven King
Simon Snow, Baz, and Penelope from Carry On
Apollo, Meg, Nico, and Will from Trials of Apollo
Magnus Chase, Samirah, Blitzen, and Hearthstone from Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard
Josie and Samuel from Running Barefoot



Which countries did you go to through the page in your year of reading?:

Italy, fantasy worlds (like Ketterdam), worlds in Star Wars, The Netherlands, England, Denmark, etc.

Which book wouldn't you have read without someone’s specific recommendation? 

Six of Crows/Crooked Kingdom (I would have read it eventually, but not this year), the plays I read for school, textbooks, etc.


Which author was new to you in 2015 that you now want to read the entire works of?

Leigh Bardugo.


Which books are you annoyed you didn't read?:

The Iliad, Huntress, Scarlet (and the rest of the Lunar Chronicles), More Than This, other Star Wars books, etc.

Did you read any books you have always been meaning to read?

YES

Ender's Shadow
Othello
Macbeth
Clariel
Shadow Games
Rebel Force books
Star Wars Republic: Prelude to Rebellion
Star Wars Clone Wars: The Defense of Kamino
Star Wars Clone Wars: Victories and Sacrifices
12 Years A Slave
Fangirl
The Crown of Ptolemy
Half-Bad
Carry On
The Trials of Apollo: The Hidden Oracle
Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard: The Sword of Summer
Six of Crows


What books are you planning to read in 2017?

Scarlet (and the rest of the Lunar Chronicles)
The Iliad
Made of Stars
Shadow of the Hegemon
Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard: The Hammer of Thor
More Than This
Huntress (and other Malinda Lo books)
Death in Venice
Maurice
Star Wars Republic and Clone Wars comics
Knights of the Old Republic comics
Finish the Rebel Force series
Freedom
The Summer I Wasn't Me
Morning is a Long Time Coming
The Torchkeeper series: The Raising
Galaxy of Fear series
Allegiance
Choices of One
Emma
Sense and Sensibility
David Copperfield
Oliver Twist
Brandon Sanderson fantasy novels
Read the next books in the Angelfall series
Juliet Immortal
6 Seconds to Life
Gone Gone Gone
Shadow on the Crown
Dark Space

Tuesday, December 27, 2016

My Christmas :)

Happy (late ish, sorry!) Christmas everyone! :)


First I had Christmas with my Dad's side of the family (RIGHT after FINALS :O). We had it at a cabin, which was cool. We did a secret Santa and I ended up getting a Christmas ornament of R2D2 and a Starbucks Cup. 





My friend Arda sent us a package again! :) She got me this really cool SPN tote bag and a  Destiel key chain! :D THANKS! :D


For Christmas at my house, I got in my stocking 

Star Wars: The Old Republic: Annihilation
Impala figurine ("my baby had a baby!" XD <-- angelofthemoor="" by="" from="" grace="" line="" of="" p="" tate="">
Supernatural billfold
Gryffindor hat
SPN gloves
White tank top
Manatee cup thingy
candy bar
candy cane
ear plugs
my note for Santa back



Gift-wise, I got

Supernatural Clue
"All I Want For Christmas Is Dean Winchester" T-shirt
Star Wars: The Old Republic: Deceived
Rebel Force: Renegade 
Rebel Force: Firefight
Star Wars Clone Wars: Last Stand on Jabiim 
Star Wars Clone Wars: Light and Dark
Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard: The Hammer of Thor
Ancestry DNA kit 
Acne face mask
Pajamas
Shirt and pants
Shoes (that haven't come in yet)




Lastly, we had Christmas with my mom's side of the family. I got he Fall Out Boy CD "Save Rock and Roll." 

Sunday, December 18, 2016

My Fifth Semester of College



Recently finished my fifth semester of college (also my first semester as a junior). It was a busy year, full of stress and business (and some things didn't turn out how I wanted them to), but there was also a lot of good too :) :D I was FINALLY cast in a mainstage show (:D :D :D :D), I got a part time job at a restaurant (I make the food!), and I WILL be going to England this next semester to study abroad. I also had fun with my classes, made new friends (and got closer to the kids in my major, so YAY :D ), and worked backstage. 

This semester was, quite frankly, exhausting in many ways. Firstly, I was doing 18 hours (two of those hours were my practicums, but STILL), working a part time job, AND I was in a play or working crew (and doing TKD when I wasn't doing the above). I also got a crush on someone near the end of the semester, which hasn't been fun :( :( But some good news- I've been watching season 12 of Supernatural (which I've been enjoying, though not as much as last season, which is to be expected since last season was one of the very best ones we've had, AND the season isn't over yet and there is a WHOLE lot to come, like the Cas-centric stuff!!), been reading way too much fanfic, found someone to  read through my book and give me notes, and found a lot of good music. :) AND made money at my job (which I got over the summer). OOoo, and I got my RED BELT, HALLELUJAH! :D <3 nbsp="" p="">

Unlike last semester, I didn't have to write that many papers, but I DID have to read a whole bunch, as well as take a lot of exams. I also had a lab at 8:30, so you can imagine how fun that was XD 

During the first week of the semester, I went in and auditioned again O_O There were too shows, one being "The Importance of Being Earnest", which I had done before. One thing I did differently this time was meet up with a lady I (and my sister) know to have her coach me on my monologues. She did an excellent job and I was definitely a lot more prepared for this one. It was one of the strongest auditions I feel I have ever done and my director/teacher said it was a good one :) Also unlike the last time, I got called back <3 :d="" a="" and="" as="" be="" bit="" both="" bracknell="" but="" cast="" chausible="" different="" dr.="" ended="" finally="" for="" going="" guys="" happy="" i="" in="" it="" lady="" list="" miss="" nbsp="" nervous="" online="" only="" p="" posted="" prism="" read="" reading="" saw="" so="" the="" thought="" tkd="" to="" took="" two="" up="" very="" was="" we="" were="" while="" who="" with="">

Rehearsals didn't start for a while, but I knew all the kids in the cast, which was nice, and it really helped me to feel like I fit in to a degree with everyone (yay!). I also made friends with some of the kids, which was nice :) 

I started out doing Taekwondo during the semester but had to take some breaks for working crew and being in the play/working. Since I have to work crew for TWO shows to get my degree, I decided to work my second show. This time I did costume crew, which I had done at my last school, so I had a good idea of what to do. The play wasn't all that well written, but it was good to work backstage and get more experience on the crew side of things. 

This semester, as I was not only in the play but in an ACTING class again (<3 .="" :d="" a="" acting.="" acting="" after="" and="" back="" be="" director="" do="" fact="" first="" from="" got="" her="" how="" i="" in="" it="" lot="" monologues="" my="" nbsp="" nice="" of="" our="" p="" quite="" rehearsal="" scene="" shakespeare="" so="" talking="" teacher="" telling="" to="" was="" which="">

The show took up a big chunk of my semester, so I'll go over that. Overall, I had a really good experience and I was SO THANKFUL to be cast in a show before I was a senior. I wish I had started at this school now, since I probably WOULD have been cast sooner :(
Anyway, the role was quite difficult but I pulled it off. My director gave me a lot of awkward- for me- directions and as someone who is autistic/an aspie (and therefore doesn't really know what flirting is) and is on the ace spectrum (and therefore doesn't really understand the sex-obsession many people have), it was difficult but apparently my character liking Dr. Chausible came across and was believable (YES! :D). Me and the other actor worked on our character's relationship too (we're friends in real life- he's a really cool guy) and I feel that helped make the connection that much more realistic. I also got to do a British accent for this play (like I did the last time), which was a ton of fun! :) Oh, and the theater  department head THOUGHT I WAS GOOD! :O He even said I was a knockout in my costume! :) YAY! :D And many people said I did very well and 'vanished into the character', which is the best compliment an actor can get. 
Everyone in the cast was a really good actor and I hope that we all succeed in our endeavors :)
Also, the costumes were quite lovely and I especially loved mine! I had to wear a corset, even though I really didn't need to, since I could fit in my costume without it :p Oh well, it was an interesting experience nonetheless (and, hey, it must be lucky, since I was wearing it when a guy said I was pretty- for the first time ever! :) ). 
The performances went well and we even got standing ovations TWICE. Many people said it was one of the best shows at our university, which made me very proud. 

Here are some pics of me in my costume :) (sorry I look, personally [everyone else looks fine, I just don't] disgusting with glasses on- it wasn't my idea.)











By the time the play ended, the semester was rapidly coming to an end. I got back to doing Taekwondo, writing various papers, and preparing for finals (and procrastinating, shh). 

Here are my thoughts on my classes (in semi order)

American Government: As someone who has always been interested in politics, this was definitely an enjoyable class. The lectures were very interesting and fun to listen to and our professor was really cool! The class was huge, but I got to talk to her a bit and she recognized me from theater (I had seen her before in a play too!). The TA was pretty cool as well and while a lot of the kids in my discussion section were a bit weird and annoying, the activities were pretty fun. I also got 100s on TWO of the tests (one being the FINAL), so that was a huge plus :D 
While I've always had a good understanding of government, I felt like I did learn quite a lot; I also learned that I know more than most people, cause most of the kids were all "whaatt" about most things.
And, randomly, I am glad that the teacher cancelled class the day after the election because I did NOT want to go! :( (I was too busy being upset and feeling dead inside).

Psychology: I've always been interested in this subject matter, so I was excited to take it. At first, it was a little obvious my teacher was a grad student who hadn't done it before, but she quickly got better and the lectures became very enjoyable. We watched a lot of fun videos that explained the topics well and the textbook was also informative and an intriguing read. We also got to participate in psychology studies, which I thought was really neat. I also made a friend in this class (he was in this one and my next one) which was really great! :) I hadn't expected to, but I did :) :D I also got As on a lot of this stuff in this class, which made me happy :) I also answered a lot of questions! 
Oh, and this is random, but it made me happy- so we were talking about attraction and she asked what we liked in other people and we all answered personality stuff  only. When asked about physical things we were all silent and one guy went "....good hygiene?" XD Gave me some positivity towards humanity :) (which I needed since that disgusting dipshit of a dump head won the election. F that guy, seriously!).

Logic and Critical Thinking: This was a hard class and while I didn't do terribly or anything (I did better than the majority of the class, including that stupid Trump supporter >:D ), I still didn't do my usual best. I think it was because it just didn't click as well inside my brain :( But I did like my professor, he was cool, AND he came to see my play and thought it was really good! :) He was impressed with my acting, which made me happy :) Oh, and like I said above, the new friend I made was in this class as well and so was a member of my cast, so that was nice :) The three of us all often got together and did the in-class activities together. 

Geography and Lab. 

It was a bit similar to geology, but I still enjoyed the class a lot. We learned a lot of various topics and I could tell that my professor (who was a grad student) was very passionate and knowledgeable about the topic. I did well on the exams and the homework and got mostly As. We learned a lot about how the earth works and how it changes and what processes it goes through. We also learned about storms and weather and climate change and all of those important things We also got to go on a field trip, which was a ton of fun! :) 


The lab was a bit difficult since there was math involved and it was at 8:30 in the morning O_O I, however, did well in it and even answered things better than the teacher XD I didn't do too well on the first lab exam but I did a LOT better on the second and I definitely succeeded in the lab :)

Run Crew and Acting Practicums

For the run crew practicum, I basically worked Costume Crew for the first show of the semester. I pressed the costumes, helped with quick changes, and would take inventory to make sure all the costumes were there (well, at least for the actress I was taking care of); I also kept a journal. For the acting practicum, I had to keep journal entries and then add them to a very long paper I had to write in regards to my role :O It ended up being 23 pages when the journal entries were included. I got As on these, so yay! :D 

Acting III 

My last full class was that of my acting class. After a while of doing an acting class, it was really nice to be able to do one again :) We had a small class, which was nice, since we all got attention and focus from the teacher an we all got to know each other pretty well. Our focus was heightened language pieces, particularly that of Shakespeare (we learned scansion for iambic pentameter so now I know how to mark my scripts). For performance assignments, we had to do a poem, a sonnet, two monologues (comedic and dramatic) and a scene. My poem was from Revenge of the Sith (the novel) and everyone was impressed with the writing (told you it was good! :D). I did a Shakespearean sonnet and the monologues were from "A Midsummer Night's Dream" and "Macbeth". My scene was from "Othello" and I played Desdemona :) I got to pick everything but the scene, but I really enjoyed doing the scene and I felt very good about how I did it at my final (I did the scene and my comedic monologue). I also read a couple of Shakespeare plays for this and while I didn't care too much for Macbeth (the flow was all over the place and just, dude, FOCUS your plot! Sheesh!) Othello was really enjoyable to read, though, I loved performing it even more. Now I want to play Desdemona when I am older! :) (maybe have James Earl Jones be Othello- I saw him perform a piece from it, and it was really well done).









Overall, I had a good semester (even if I did get upset after finals) and I am- again- so thankful I was cast in a show!! :D 

May the Force be with you! 
Jedi Shena Tokala signing off 







Wednesday, November 2, 2016

Happy 21st Birthday to Me :)


Photo made by my friend, Arda :)

So today I turned 21. While I had classes and rehearsal (which was FUN :D ), it was still a fun day and I got to do things I was wanting to do. Also, now I can legally drink, so I got a strawberry daiquiri and drank a little of the wine I had gotten while on vacation over the summer. Both were very good :) I also bought some Rum (WHY IS THE RUM GONE?) to make daiquiris at a later date :)



Tuesday, November 1, 2016

30 Day Dean Winchester Challenge

Created by http://lovethediseasedkillerpuppy.tumblr.com/ 

Day:

1: Favorite Dean (other than regular Dean): Dean Smith, because he's calm, cute, and listens to NPR. What's not to like? :)
                       
2: Favorite episode: Alpha and Omega, Dead in the Water, Fanfiction, Road Trip, Faith, Houses of the Holy, The Born Again Identity, Baby, Phantom Traveler, Exile on Main St., Two And A Half Man, The Man Who Would Be King, Goodbye Stranger, Dream A Little Dream of Me,  What Is And What Should Never Be, etc.                                                                                                                                                         




2: Favorite season: Season 11, Season 6, Season 9, and Season 2  



2.2 Favorite ‘fanboy’ moment: His crush on Gunner Lawless was adorable and I love when he gets excited about various fandom things, like cowboys, Vonnegut, and sci-fi movies. 



3: Biggest dropped story line opportunity: Hmmmm, still waiting on Destiel I guess? Would have liked more of Demon-Dean too. I also wanted the Cas/Colette thing in relation to Dean/Cain to have been explored a tad more explicitly (I SAW it, but some didn't).  

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4: Escape: I like the one where he's captured by the police (in season 10) and knocks over the can of pens/pencils. The stupid officer falls for it (like, seriously, I knew what he was doing :P) and Dean grapples him with his legs and escapes (that was sooo dumb). 

5: Favorite Kill: When he stabbed Zachariah in the FACE and when he shot Azazel and when he killed the Wendigo (and many others, because he's badass :D). 


6: Most surprising reveal/admission: I kinda already knew the big reveals XD Oops


7: Weapon: That blade he had in Purgatory 


8: Piece of clothing: There are several. 

 











9: Physical trait: His face and his shoulders  










10: Personality trait: Nurturing, kindness, and how he connects to those most people in society deem as lesser. 











11: Bad ass scene: There's a lot. In all honesty, I found him taking the peaceful way out to be badass in "Alpha and Omega". But of course, his fights are always badass :) (I LOVE LOVE LOVE a good fight scene). The part where he's taking on all those demons at Cain's house was cool (especially when he threw the dish cloth and the plate at one- I love when fighters use creative things like that), as was when he slaughtered all those vampires when he'd been turned (oh, and not drinking the blood when it was right there in his face, even though he was a newly turned vampire). OH, and when the Stynes had his all tied up and he burst free and killed them all (they were bad, so I don't care). Also, I'm glad he killed all of those rapists in season 10 with the help of the Mark. That was good.
And, of course, this episode in season 8 :) 


12: Best decision 

How he handled this (as I mentioned in my review) issue at the end of last season- aka, dealing with Amara- was really the best way for him to go about it and he did it with maturity and bravery and strength and it goes to show to the few who still doubt him what a good man he is. He also took his power back from her, which I appreciated.


13: Describe him in one word: 

Heroic


14: Lame joke: 
I LIKE his jokes, personally, so I don't find any of them lame :P 

15: Happy moment: I love all the happy moments he has with Castiel. I'm glad he has a person who brings him happiness :) (when it DOES occur, since their lives are sad :(). 



16: Favorite quote: 

"We're family. We need you. I need you."

"Cas. We're shoving your ass through the eye of that needle, even if it kills all three of us"

"He zapped me here, yes, but he didn't want this. This wasn't his idea. You're family. He doesn't want you dead.
He doesn't want any of this! 
.......Yeah, that's revenge. It'll get you out of bed in the morning, and when you get it, it feels great... for about five minutes. I've been there.Me and Sam—we have had our fair share of fights—more than our share—but no matter how bad it got, we always made it right because we're family. I need him. He needs me. And when everything goes to crap, that's all you've got—family. Now you might be a—an all-powerful being...but I think you're human where it counts. You simply need your brother
......You don't want to be alone. Not really. I mean, hell. Maybe that's why you wanted me. But deep down, you didn't really want me... 'cause I'm not him. So maybe I can kill you. Or maybe I can't. Maybe if I pull this trigger, we all live happily ever after, or maybe we die bloody, or maybe it doesn't matter, because maybe there's a different way. So I'm gonna ask you again. Put aside the rage. Put aside the hate. And you tell me...what do you want?"


17: Head canon

Sometimes he would almost apply for college but after Sam left, he gave up. But, once he got the bunker, he started looking into it again. 

I definitely think he is bisexual (or at least biromantic) and has had crushes on people and characters like Han Solo, Dr. Sexy (because OBVIOUS), Gunner Lawless, young Obi-Wan, and now Castiel. However, unlike a lot of people, I don't think he's acted on his feelings for men yet. Also, I think he fell in love with Castiel during the time of season 7/season 8. 

18: Moment of empathy: THERE ARE SO MANY! Dean is such a compassionate and caring person and he helps so many people and you can tell he very much does want to help others as much as he can. 





Another one I like was when he saved the girl from being raped and instead of just chasing after the guy he made sure she was unharmed and that she had a phone on her to call for help. That was good. Most guys in fiction wouldn't have done that. 



19: Moment of weakness

When he nearly says yes to Michael :(

20: Monologue

I know I already posted this, but this was one of his "big damn hero" moments and it's my favorite, so I'm posting it again.


"He zapped me here, yes, but he didn't want this. This wasn't his idea. You're family. He doesn't want you dead.
He doesn't want any of this! 
.......Yeah, that's revenge. It'll get you out of bed in the morning, and when you get it, it feels great... for about five minutes. I've been there.Me and Sam—we have had our fair share of fights—more than our share—but no matter how bad it got, we always made it right because we're family. I need him. He needs me. And when everything goes to crap, that's all you've got—family. Now you might be a—an all-powerful being...but I think you're human where it counts. You simply need your brother
......You don't want to be alone. Not really. I mean, hell. Maybe that's why you wanted me. But deep down, you didn't really want me... 'cause I'm not him. So maybe I can kill you. Or maybe I can't. Maybe if I pull this trigger, we all live happily ever after, or maybe we die bloody, or maybe it doesn't matter, because maybe there's a different way. So I'm gonna ask you again. Put aside the rage. Put aside the hate. And you tell me...what do you want?"

21: Most heart wrenching scene


Dean is Red Meat, being so desperate, made me cry :( It was really upsetting. Poor baby 


Anytime he cries when losing someone :( (like when he lost Sam, Castiel, Bobby, Kevin, and Charlie :( That was sad :( ). 


Telling Sam he remembers Hell :( 


His face when his mom leaves :( My mom shall be his mom now. 



22: Most underrated scene 


I love the whole scene where he talks down Sam in season 7, reminding him of the wound on his hand and that he got out. Dean does some great stuff here and it hardly gets talked about.


I also really like it when he says the line "Cas...we're gonna shove your ass through the eye of that needle even if it kills all three of us." It's tough but caring, which I think is a good description of who Dean (to a degree, since he's very layered).




23: Most wanted to smack him upside the head

When he awkwardly flirts :p (okay, not really, but still, it's soooo awkward). I guess when he killed Amy Pond. Like, I get WHY he did, but I still don't know if it was the right decision (but then, so did he). I guess that he watches porn? Eh? (yeah, dude, don't watch thaaaattt :O ).

24: Physical tick/tendency: I like his flirty smile........:O O_O Mainly cause it kinda works....



25: Pop culture reference 

I really like when he basically quoted "Lord of the Rings" to Sam's (the "I can't carry it for you, but I can carry you") and when he references Star Wars :) Oh, and when he mentions Katniss from "The Hunger Games." 

26: Protective moment


I love it when he's protective of kids. The above one especially got to me the first time I watched the episode, since Dean was SO concerned about the baby and was the only one who seemed to really care about the his welfare. 


27: Relationship





I adore his relationship with Castiel. It's warm, it's loving, it's subtle, and you can tell they really care about and love each other (even when they are angry with one another). They don't want to ever lose the other and I'm very glad that they have each other in their lives, because they really do need the other in many ways. 

28: Silent monologue (When he shows a bunch of different emotions in a short time while not saying a word): 

There are many. One particularly painful one is where he tries to fake smile when told that's how he can get through the day when he's really depressed in season 7. Also, just recently, the one where he showed how upset he was with his mom without saying a word (like when he wouldn't hug her and backed up, looking down and just staring in silence after she'd left).
Oh, and the glances he has with Cas that speak volumes. They really can communicate with just a look.